Friday, April 11, 2008

"You're gonna miss this"

I'm sure many of you have heard this song by Trace Adkins. The first time I heard it, I really felt like it was about my life. I have always looked toward the next phase of my life. As a child, I couldn't wait to be like my older cousins, driving, going out, having a feeling of independence. When I was in college, I couldn't wait to find the man I was going to marry and spend the rest of my life with. I thought that when that happened, then I would have arrived, that nothing could be better. After getting married, we had a one bedroom apartment, and began looking at houses. That was going to be the greatest, our first little home. It was so exciting, then shortly after, we decided to have a child. We did, and that was great. I now have two precious children and a wonderful husband. At the end of the song, it's a plumber who comes to her house and one kid is screaming, one is crying and the phone is ringing. That is me so many times over. The plumber says to the girl, you're gonna miss this, you're gonna want this back, you're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast, these are some good times, so take a good look around, you may not know it now, but you're gonna miss this.
This is so true! I look at my children every day and try to take a snapshot of their looks in my mind. I pray that moments with them will not leave my memory. I can't imagine what my life will be like in 2 years, 5 years, 10 years, or 15 years from now. But I don't want to, I love this stage, I love where I am. Sometimes, the days are hard, long and tiring, but I wouldn't want it any other way. These are the days that I'm going to miss! As I look back, I miss a lot of my past, I miss high school, I miss living with my mom, I miss having my best friend two miles down the road from me, I miss a lot. But I am so thankful that God has given me these memories to miss. I want to know that these days are going to go by so fast, and I want to make the most of them now.